Current mood:	complacent
Current music:	Hall & Oates - Can't Go For That

Cleaning Sucks...
Christina and I are still cleaning the office.  It looks a lot better and you can walk on the carpet again, but it can be better.  So I am kicking myself about it getting this bad.  I know I hate cleaning but some times I just get so angry at myself about leaving this place a disaster that I break down and just start cleaning like my life depends on it.  Hopefully by next weekend we can start using this room to its full potential again.

A lot of my family and friends are going through trials, for them I give them my full support and big hugs:

Jessica: I fully understand the battles, especially with the occasional bag of Doritos, but you have to look at the next day with new ambition.

Sara: You're far more than you give yourself credit for and remind me of when I started doing things on my own.  Christina and I have faith in you and believe in you.  Even though work is getting you down, you still have to admit that this job is lightyears better than previous gigs and in a year things will be much better than they are now.

Christina: My wife, I infinitely love you and I do apologize for being a little overzealous lately and maybe even sometimes a bit more aloof.  I really need to kick my TV habit and get in gear.  The reason we got the PVR is so we could do things rather than me being parked in front of it constantly.  Thank goodness we don't have cable or I'd be attached to TV by crazy glue.

My Mom and the rest of my family: For being distant lately.  There is just a lot of things going on, especially on how tight money is due to gas prices, it makes things a bit more tight.  I want to visit you all, especially my grandparents.  I know I promised them a scanner and some of my time.  I hope we can do this soon.  This extends to my inlaws too. :)

I kinda miss having a big famly sometimes, where everyone comes and meet and have dinner and chat.  Yes, that was a run-on sentense but that's okay.  Lately I am tired of being listless and just spending time working, TV, sleeping and the like.  I also hate being fat too which leads me to a convo I had at work on Friday.

Dave, our network guy, had bariatric surgery.  He's only in his 300's and is like 31 or 32.  He has had stomach problems for a long time, like I have IBS but his is a bit different (not sure exactly) but his doctors feared the obesity would make it worse for him in the future, so they did something to him.  I hear lap band, but haven't talked to him to confirm.  Josh, the COO and friend at work, took me aside to mention insurance and maybe I should look at these options too, which I do agree based on my doctor's decision.  I remember walking in Texas to his dad's house, it was a gentle upwards hill and I was so out of breath when I walked up there I had to sit.  That's just horrible, it was no longer than 100 feet.  So I told him I'd look into options when we got insurance.  I also told him I need to check up on my teeth and my eyes too.  Monday we'll know when we will be green-lit for insurance.

So I guess that's why I have been seriously contimplating family, friends and life in general.  I want to be alive to see my kids graduate and have kids of their own.  I want to be able to go to a water park and enjoy the waterslides again, I miss that so much.  I want to be filled up by a hamburger and some chips.  Honestly, I am jealous of my aunt right now because of her surgery.  A few people say she took the easy way out, but honestly it's just as hard afterwards.  You still have to eat right, you have to make sure you get ALL of your vitamins in (which is harder when your stomach is the size of your fist) and have to balance your intake.  I admire her courage honestly.

I guess that's it right now, I just needed to get that off my mind.